why dont i draw anything anymore

I fell out of bed and hit my nose on the floor :/

I feel tired and awake at the same time.

not a good feeling.

>could be getting calc test back tomorrow
>probably did not do well on it
>PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE OH GOD PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE PANIC MODE HELP ME PANIC MODE PANIC MODE

i was supposed to be at work.....
...24 minutes ago.


considering that i couldn't sleep at all and ended up somehow getting less than an hour of sleep last night (i was still awake when my alarm went off), it's kind of amazing that i'm even awake right now

but still
24 minutes late for work.

fortunately i was scheduled an hour earlier than usual, so i can claim that I misread the schedule and thought I was supposed to come in at 11 instead of 10, but it's still really shitty to be coming in an hour late

*sigh*

Well this is weird

I'm physically hungry but have no appetite whatsoever
I want to eat but I don't feel like eating

That's exactly how I was feeling about an hour ago.

Like, I was even getting hunger pains but wasn't motivated enough to eat anything.

Eventually I forced myself to eat something, now I'm fine :L

Forced myself to eat
still feel like shit

That happens to me every now and then. I get so hungry that I start feeling a little sick to my stomach and by that time I don't even feel like eating though I know I have to.

I get that a lot too :c
I usually just try to eat something fairly light and a bit bland like toast. Try to keep tabs on how much you're eating though, if it's related to anxiety or something (idk if you're diagnosed or anything Vipes, but I know you've posted about similar in the past) then it's actually really easy to just completely forget to eat. Which sounds bloody ridiculous, really x:

that moment when someone tells you something 15 hours ago and it just now starts to actually get to you


hahahahahaha my life

that moment when you realize the chance you guys getting that 200 dollars back from the shifty "friend" who's buddy is a "bartender" is non existent. Yes, that moment is now and just fuck.

My dad and my brother love to complain about things that are their own faults.

It's weird how quickly your opinion of someone can change.

I'm not being passive-aggressive here, I genuinely mean it's strange how it happens, it's kind of an uncomfortable mental shift.

its weird how quickly yourself can change i dont even know whats happened in the past couple of mothns FUK